The Blog of mandy5367

Things have escalated back up to "normal". Last week was a little shitty cause something was bringing Jeff down and in turn me down. Or maybe it was the other way. But no matter which way it was, things got tense and we exchanged a few words I wish hadn't ever been said. Never anything I would call a "fight", but the lack of emotion caused a few things to be said (probably on both ends, I dunno if he got hurt at all last week, this is just my point of view) that I truly believe never would have been said if the world had been in normal perspective. I'm glad I said something on Sunday, and that it's made things right again. Certainly not glad that I made Jeff cry, but I'm not sure I could have gotten my point across with any nicer words. My pessimistic side is telling me the only reason things are better is because he is pretending every thing's peachy so he doesn't hurt my feelings anymore, but I stopped listening to that voice a while back.

I wonder if I'll spend tonight, as usual, reading lonely stories on here from myself and others missing their significant others in the military, "I live in a sexless marriage", and whatever other, depressing stories I can find to keep me up until 3 am. This can't be healthy, but maybe it's all that keeps me going.