The Blog of mandy5367

I want you to hear all my thoughts and feelings, and after my first blog you noticed I express words a little better through writing, so here I am.

I really want to do it. What we talked about. I have no doubt in my mind, body and soul that I want to be with you. Somehow, as strongly as I feel about that, I feel more confident in the fact that I never want to hurt you. Being that, I don't want you to make any mistakes to make me happy. Forget everyone. This is absolutely about you and I. I want this to be something you want as badly as I do. And no matter how far along this gets (even though it seems we may only have a few weeks left :P) I want you to know you can stop it at any time. If you're having doubts, if you think it's too early, you should stop the whole thing. I don't care if it's 3 seconds before it's finalized, and I'm standing there, holding hands with you, ready to be your lady. You have just as much say in this as I do. As heartbroken as I would feel, and as many tears I would shed if it were to happen that you said no, I would be immensely happy and thankful that you had the courage to express your true feelings. I want nothing more than you to be happy.

'Tis not about money or status. 'Tis about love.

And definitely do not think that if you do say no 3 seconds before it's finished, that I will question your love for me. I know you love me :) But this is a big step, one that can be reversed, no problem, but you know me....I gotta get it right the first time he he. Even if it means waiting a year, two, nine, or forever.

Basically, I'm saying you can scoop me up whenever you like, but I never, ever want you to have to look at me with regret.

If you have no doubts, and this all goes through, I know that I will be the happiest woman on the planet. But if it doesn't happen (at least not yet), I at least have you (which still pretty much makes me the happiest woman on the planet  ^^).