The Blog of mandy5367

I'm not even sure where to start with this, so I'll choose the beginning.

My first delivery at work today was just down the street, and a little boy (probably between 7-10 years old) opened the door. Obviously his mom had just given him the money to pay for it. From experience, I know that when this happens, parents forget to tell their kids that there's supposed to be a tip involved, or they feel it's justified to "forget" to tell them because they know they won't know better, or don't want to give extra money to a stranger when mommy didn't say so.

Anyway, because of said knowledge, when I handed him his change I shorted him a dollar. In my mind, I said "He's not going to give me a tip, I'll just take one and if they call me on it I can just play dumb that I counted wrong."

On my last delivery of the day I started counting the change back to the customer, and in my mind I couldn't remember what 40-27 was, at least not correctly, and instead of giving her 13 bucks I gave her 18. Not until I got to my car did my mind randomly do the math CORRECTLY. I couldn't just walk back up to her door and say "Hey, I need a 5 back."

I honestly believe in my heart this was payback (karma) for what I did earlier in the day. I feel incredibly bad about it now, even after writing it out and essentially being punished for it already. I had no idea what that dollar could have meant to the family I took it from, but I know what the 5 dollars meant to me. It means a lot at this point and time of my life.

Even though I stand firm that if you don't have the money to tip the driver a few bucks, you shouldn't be ordering pizza, you should be going to the grocery store, but I still feel bad for what I did.

I hope the family on Brookforest Dr can forgive me, and the God and Goddess as well. "An it harm none, do what ye will." I have not done that in my life today, and accept any further reprocussions that the Goddess deems necessary, though I'm sure what has already happened was all that will happen to me.

Merry Meet all.